Back in the day, many's the time that I would be standing outside South Africa House protesting against the apartheid regime.
I knew about - and fully subscribed to - the sober Marxist analysis that there could be no peace or prosperity for the region until capitalism was eradicated. But to be honest even that wasn't enough to stem a sense of good-will and optimism towards the ANC's 'rainbow nation'. In truth that bubble was burst long along - but the spectacle last week of 46 striking mineworkers being shot was still beyond shocking. It's a milestone marking the ultimate decline of the ANC from liberation movement to just another party of capital.
Because most poignantly - the strikers in Marikana face an unholy coalition of not only the bastard mining company Lonmin, but also the ANC's security forces and their own former union - the once revered South African NUM who seemed to have turned this into a turf war with the independent break-away AMCU.
So despite having some sort of grip on what's been happening there - it was with a very heavy heart then that I found myself holding a placard in Trafalgar Square again this evening - some twenty years after celebrating the end of apartheid.